Wednesday, July 11, 2018

Don't Give Up Before the Miracle Happens

The expression, "Don't give up before the miracle happens" at times can be tough to swallow.  Many times when we are waiting for a miracle, we are in a lot of emotional or physical pain or are in a tough financial situation. Many times we may get to the point where we feel all is lost or are about to give up hope.  We may feel we have been patient after waiting for an extended amount of time.  We may begin to feel like the miracle isn't coming and there is no way it can possibly come.  After all, as patient as we have been, all the work we have done to make it happen, shouldn't it have happened, be happening, or at least we be able to see it starting to happen by now?  Breathe, my friend.  It will happen.  You can get through this and you can hold on until the miracle happens.  Do not give up hope and believe the miracle will happen and it will happen.  I have heard it said, when all roads you have traveled bring you to dead ends and you feel like you have totally exhausted every road and there is no solution, God makes the solution.  I totally believe this as I have seen it happen many times in my own life.  I have seen God make a new road for me when there seem to be none in sight.  I could not even begin to imagine how He was going to do this, but He did it and provided ways out of bad situations for me.  The great thing is we don't need to worry about the HOW.  We just have faith, do our part, and let God take care of the rest.  It is by no means easy, but it is doable. 
I have been there and I am telling you IT CAN HAPPEN.  I have been there where the pain was so bad I could barely get out of bed for months. I allowed depression to sink in and lost some, but thankfully not all, of my hope.  I thought being confined to a bed most of the day was my future and that seemed very grim.  I was told children were not to be in my future as the doctors said medically I would not be able to conceive or if by some chance I did conceive I would never carry a baby long enough for it to be viable. At that point I could barely take care of myself, so while I wanted children, it was not my main concern. I explored countless options and when I was told surgery had just as much chance if not more of paralyzing me as it did of making me able to do small things, I almost totally gave up. 
I sought God in prayer and asked what I was supposed to do. I had always known since I was a child I was sent to this earth to help people.  How could I help people if I couldn't help myself and could barely leave the house to go to a doctor appointment, much less anything else? Look deeper, wait, and have faith I was told.  Like a rebellious child, I rebutted with "But I have had faith. I've looked. I've researched and asked and waited and I still can't do things to take care of myself.  There are no good answers.  Is this really what you meant for me?"  My rebuttal was answered with one short sentence: "Have faith & trust me."  After more tears, I recollected myself and decided there must be things I am missing.  Being bed bound was not God's plan for me.  I started looking outside of the box for answers.  I started talking with doctors who were not in our insurance network and looking for holistic methods to help me.  Eventually, the answers came through various holistic and traditional medical therapies, none of which were close to my home at the time and most of which were not covered by insurance. I began to become a functioning person again and was able to do things again.  The pain subsided.  While it always came back, it rarely was intense enough to force me to my bed for extended periods of time and even then it was maybe a couple a days, which was nothing after being bound to my bed for the better part of a year.  By having faith and hope and NOT GIVING UP, God had blessed me with the miracle I had been waiting for and many more.  A side note for those of you who don't know me: Those children multiple doctors swore I would never have or carry to term: I have 2 beautiful girls who are now 15 and 12.  Hold on my friend, the miracle is coming.  Ask the Angels to be with you while you hold on. Ask them to lend you their strength when yours isn't enough.
I don't want to make this post too long, but I do want to speak to those of you who are having financial difficulties.  Your miracle is coming as well.  Keep the faith and don't give up.  I have been there too.  Months behind on car payments and other bills, my children's father thousands of dollars behind in child support, doing everything I could to keep food on the table and a roof over our heads. Having no clue how to stretch a budget that was already stretch beyond thin. To say it can be tough financially is a huge understatement. We have been blessed though.  God always provided us with small miracles until the big one came.  People would give us food baskets or would "happen to make way too much for dinner" and bring us "some". They were Angels in disguise who didn't make too much for dinner.  They would bring us meals that would feed the 3 of us for 2 days. No one unintentionally makes that much food. They were all miracle workers and I am eternally grateful for each of them.  People would give me tons of clothes their daughter outgrew.  One lady even gave us a comforter that was almost brand new, insisting her daughter was no longer into the character on it.  When we went to the food banks, we were blessed as it just "happened" the days we went they would get produce, cheese, sometimes even fish or meats they usually didn't have available.  I don't believe in coincidences. I believe God's hands are in everything.  We had a very rough time for a few years, but God blessed us because I didn't give up.  Now are we not only financially supported, but I get to help others in order to earn that financial support.  That is the greatest blessing of all in my eyes. For those of you in desperate financial situations, I say to you hold on and have faith.  Don't give up before the Miracle happens.  If you believe, it will happen. You too can ask the Angels for their strength to help you through it until the miracle happens. 
Praying for all your miracles to happen and you to have the strength to hold on until they do.
Margaret Phillips